| today at the gym i put my ipod down on the treadmill and there was a fucking puddle of water just chillin of course and now my ipod is broken. im very very disappointed because its new and i hadn't had an ipe in dayssss and i run a lot and it is essential. now that mo's ipe is broken too, im fucked. i am sad. im also sad about the fact that im so fucking spoiled that i cant live with out an ipod. and that i cried about my hair yesterday because i made the horrible mistake of dying it brown (it will be blonde again tomorrow). i need to get over myself.
i miss my friends so much. i can't wait to be close to all of them next year (again, except psalm). i love nick, he is so cool.
i've been rekindling my love of playing music. its nice. i'm determined to write the best song i have ever written. break the barriers down and do something new and original.
i can't wait to be 21. well, i cant wait for my 21st. it will be an amazing night that i will definitely not remember. that's whats next on my list of exciting things.
well, after reading through this entry i have realized something huge. this is what i realized:
I am fucking profound.
lol not. im so lame. | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
| it's so strange how things come in and out of our lives. how something that means so much one day means nothing the next.
this is a pretty typical thought, but it gets me every time. friends and boyfriends and classes and jobs and places. weird huh. sort of reasurring in a way. sort of terrifying in a way.
i miss jenna, stefi, and sara sooo much. i cant wait to be closer to my lovlies next year. but then i will miss the shit out of psalm. i dont want to think about that one!
wow, livejournal. its been a while. maybe i should update more.
but maybe not!! muahahahaa | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| i'm going to start writing again. maybe not in here, but somewhere.
i feel confident that i am going to be very successful in my future endeavors. i just have to utilize my opportunities and get ahead in the game (whatever the game may be). and maybe all of this structure ive been striving towards is not the only answer after all.
im feeling antsy as hell. ive got the itch, of course, what else is new. time to make money and fly to seattle. i need a change of scenery.
tomorrow i start internship number one. cool? its not exactly (at all) along the lines of the field im trying to pry into, but whatever. work experience, good addition to my resume...its all good.
ohhh i am growing up. i love it! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i can't wait for fucking lovefest. thats all i can focus on right now!
i have never been in a happier, healthier relationship. i dont know how i got lucky enough to find the best boy in all of santa barbara, but somehow i did! i'm a lucky lady.
i miss jenna.
i miss jenna.
i cant wait to see jenna. and stefi!
ahhhhh!!!
lovefest!!!! | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| hahaha i got strep on 4/20 last year. i hella forgot about that shit. damn.
i have the best man ever. ever. everrrrr. he is the best.
i cant wait for motherfucking lovefest. AND JENNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! i miss my little turd more than anything in the universe. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| i was on mushrooms when i wrote that hella out there life is beautiful entry...just so you guys don't think ive turned into some hippy freak while i've been gone. hardeehar. mushroom revelations are the most legit revelations on earth though...straight up.
kicked it in brooklyn the past few days and went to a music festival on coney island called siren fest. it was hella fun, but i was a fucking hot mess. i can't handle these east coast summas! anyway, lifes still good. looking forward to home and settling in in SB. miss jenna and stefi and psalm with a burrrrrrning passionnnnnn. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | i cant express through livejournal how fucking happy i am to be the fuck out of my previous house. literally when i think about it i get sick to my stomach and feel like crying. i will miss living with psalm, but that is literally the ONLY thing. thank fucking god for the new school year. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| my life is so beautiful. i really hope yours is too.
i cant begin to articulate how amazing this trip has been and how peaceful and grounded i feel. i have grown so much this last year, and i can finally completely honestly say that i am so happy with who i have become. everything has fallen into place.
i love kyloolie | | comments: Leave a comment |
| so far july has been amazing. i just spent the last week in martha's vinyard. it's such a beautiful island. i met so many cool, amazing people that i wish i could spend every day of my life with. my friends there work on a farm, and we ate fresh vegetables every day for every meal and i'm never going back to store bought nasty bullshit.
i've been on a major reading kick. im reading lolita right now, it's pretty disturbing and gross, but also beautiful. i have completely overcome my weed addiction/obsession, and i feel so good and clear and healthy. kylie's training for a half marathon so i basically am as well. whooooo.
i spent the past two weeks in MA. at first when i got there it was complete culture shock. the people were so fucking rich and preppy and snobby and i almost had a nervous breakdown because i wasn't an anorexic bitch who went to boarding school wearing lily pulitzer, but eventually i got used to it, smiled at as many bitch ass hoes as possible, and accepted this strange, foreign state for what it was. and the week at the vinyard was fucking amazing. despite the snobby stereotype, i met some of the most amazing, down to earth people i have ever come across. we watched sunsets, rode in the back of a huge truck with 15 people on a dirt road to a vinyard party in a huge feild on a lake with a dock, swam in the warm ocean in the middle of the night, and played tons of beautiful music (i met one of the best musicians ive ever heard). the stars were amazing.
the east coast is a completely different world. everyone was so intruiged by my bay area california-ness, and it was really interesting and funny trying to explain myself to them. when i first got here, i concluded that i could NEVER live on the east coast, even though i had planned to for so long. it was too different and weird. but, after i adapted and got used to it, i fell inlove. i am absolutely going to live here someday. putting myself out of my comfort zone was the best thing i could have done this summer.
im at kylie's now upstate, and im so happy to be here, but it was so sad leaving everyone on the vinyard. i'm going to look back on this summer with amazing memories.
i think i might transfer to a school in washington next year, or the year after. so many of my friends will be there, and i need a change.
big plans for this coming year. big big plans. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | ive been in boston for the past 4 days. pretttttttttttyyyyyyy fun. i hate barron davis. hes a traitor. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | i got to jfk at 6:30 am (new york time) today. it was kind of exhausting. right now im in my cousins awesomeeee brownstone apt in brooklyn. tomorrow westchester, and then rhinebeck. I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY! ive never gotten to spend so much time in my favoriteeee city in the world, and a month is pretty perfect right now. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| tonight was such a blast from the past. got drunk at joyces for his 21st (whooo!) with all my favorite people and chilled in the RV and... yeah. it was crazy, i have so many memories with these people since middle school, and now we're turning 21 together. i love themmmm.
well, we were talking about LJ so i decided to post an entry. ok, byeeee | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| i just watched the movie "gone baby gone". it was awesome...i recommend you see it.
i need to do something really significant to give back. i am so lucky and so blessed, it's the least i can do. im thinking about doing an abroad type thing..maybe with my sister. shes been looking into doing some volunteering at this orphanage in thailand, which would definitely be my first choice. love the little babsies!
anyway, i should probably start getting serious about doing some major research (funds, conditions, etc). i literally feel guilty that i am so lucky, but i might as well take advantage of it by sharing my luck and my blessings with as many people i can. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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very beginning of clay's homegrown. i swear he will make a career out of this. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| sooo...not to sound too excited, but i responded to one of mickey avalon's bulletin posts because it was about the 650, and he totally responded and we've exchanged a few emails and umm..thats all im going to say! its his official page so im not just being a dumbass. so basically all that matters is we have corresponded and he has seen a picture of me before! haha.
well, i thought it was cool... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | i love my friends so fucking much. i feel so bad for people who have no friends...or no real friends...or whatever. i don't think i would survive. all of my friends are amazing. im the luckiest girl in the universe. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| life sucks when my best friends have to go home.
but ohhhhh, what a glorious weekend it was. the best birthday of my life, hands down. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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